Dreams

My World of Glass Feels

Saying a flood of lights filled the room would have been an exaggeration, but there was lighter than I’d seen in quite a while. A flurry of words sounded and I could identify three or four different voices. “Hey, you can all ask your questions in a minute, but right now I have someone to introduce you to...
— Demetri Kirk, My World of Glass

In honor of the ending of a 5 year journey and the beginning of sharing this story with all of you, I decided to share some background into my story.

The idea for My World of Glass came from nothing else than, wait for it, brushing my teeth. I remember one night getting ready for bed, during Christmas break, and I was brushing my teeth. I had finished working on another project that night and had been telling my best friend about the progress when Dessa walked into my mind.

Not only did she walk in, but she had Demetri with her. I knew their names. I knew what they looked like. Ieven could see the cement bunker they seemed to walk into. I heard Demetri tell Dessa, “Meet the Crew.” I heard him introduce each of them. Harvey, Bastien, Celina (who later became Celia) and Timber, Laura Lee and Amber, and Jeremy. I could see them all. I knew what made them tick. (I knew Harvey had a secret, and I knew what it meant for Dessa, but didn’t know what the secret was.) I didn’t know what they were doing in the bunker. I didn’t know why Dessa’s back hurt the way it did.

I remember running to my phone (toothbrush still in my mouth) and immediately texting my best friend “I JUST HAD THE GREATEST IDEA”. Of course, she thought I was talking about the book I was already working on. I instantly grabbed a paper and wrote down every detail I could think of and sent a picture of it to her. She instantly fell in love with Demetri (who wouldn’t?) and insisted I work on it.

The next day I wrote the entire scene (now in chapter three) and then started from the beginning. Within the very first scene I knew exactly what the title was. I knew why Dessa was in so much pain. I felt so much sympathy for this girl. I needed to tell her story. From the very beginning I knew I wasn’t writing this story for myself, I was writing it for someone else; for everyone else.

This book went through so many (six!) drafts. I cried over it, I got angry about it, I defended it like I would a child. It was amazing, it was terrible, it was everything to me. I started this story before I even had a diagnosis for what was going on in my life. Nothing about it related to my life, other than the pesky nightmares so I thought. But after I was diagnosed with PTSD I recognized the symptoms Dessa had as well. It allowed me to go back in my first rewrite and explain, in depth, what was going on with me and Dessa. It allowed me to explain things I didn’t know I needed to explain. Dessa became my best friend in some ways, we helped each other.

When Demetri threw in the plot twist he did I remember staring at my computer, screaming, and asking my mom for the car keys. I drove straight to my best friend’s house, threw myself on her bed, and told her all about how her favorite character was making my life hard. I, the author, had been thrown a curve ball I did not appreciate.

Writing My World of Glass was an adventure. I loved every minute of writing it, rewriting it, falling in love with it, hating it. But I always knew I needed this book to be published. I’ll talk more about that another post, but I always thought I would “Traditionally” publish this book. I spent two years trying. In October, a month after I got married, I knew it was time. I had to publish this book. I threw 7 more offers out into the universe and when I still got no answer, I decided Independant publishing was the way I needed to go.

I look forward to sharing more secrets and behind the scene looks with you. Stay tuned! Subscribe! Know that if there is ever anything you want to see talked about on here I am all for it. If I can’t find the answer, I’ll spotlight someone who can.

A 5 Year Journey

Five years. What can be accomplished in this time? A high school career, a bachelor’s degree, a child’s life up until kindergarten. Five years feels a lot longer than it seems. This was how long it took from the night I first pictured Dessa Lakewood and “the crew” until the publication. Here I am, two days before this book officially becomes available for purchase, and I am almost to the finish line. The joy I feel is immense. The pride I feel is bubbling up.

I plan on sharing pieces of this process in weekly updates. I want to not only share Dessa’s story with people, but I want to be able to share my story of how her life came to be. I, personally, find it extremely gratifying when authors share their inspiration and trials and perseverance with their readers. I want to be able to show my readers that an idea can come from the simplest things and expand and create a world. Whether that be a world you simply create for yourself, or a world you create for other people. You created something. That, in itself, is an extremely important piece of this life.

I look forward to hearing from you. If there is ever something you want me to share, some question you have about writing, please share it with me! If I don’t have an answer, I will find someone who does and I will have them answer it! I am excited to share this journey with you and I hope to hear how it has helped your process.